Say no to smoking

I met my brothers back in my hometown last weekend. One of them quit smoking as one of his new year's resolution. It have been about one and a half month. He said that he feel better since he quit. My eldest brother also quit for few months. He said he can't see a single benefit from smoking. Its just give him something to do for his time.
Both my brothers used to be heavy smokers. Two pack of strong Dunhill everyday. And now i can say that they have successfully quit.
My younger brother, used to be a light smoker quit few years ago.
Now i'm the only smoker among my siblings. However, all four my brother in laws are still smokers. But they all only do the 'rokok daun' which is cheap, less nicotine and other toxics.
I'm not a heavy smoker. In fact, i haven't touch a cigarett for about three day and didn't even think about it.
So why i'm not quitting? Actually i've tried few times before. But i guess when you are not a serious heavy smoker, you'll find its difficult to seriously quit too. When you are very light smoker, the amount of money wasted on cigarett also not significant to justify the need to quit. The effect to your health also not significant. So why quit in the first place?
Why smoking?
1. Release the stress.
All sort of stress. Work related. Family related. Traffic jammed. Chores. Mad at somebody. Did something wrong. And the list goes on.
2. Networking or socializing.
Being in a circle of friends. A group of people. And get accepted just for one similarities. Smokers.
3. Something to do while waiting while have nothing to do.
That all i guess.
What are my new year's resolution anyway? I don't have any for this year. Am i a loser??? Mmmm...
Mmmm...


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Feeling

Have you ever feel like you don't know what you feel? Have you ever talk about something you don't know what you are talking about?
Have you ever filled a glass with emptiness? Have you ever fill a room with darkness by taking out the light. Have you ever hate the people you love? Have you ever have a chaotic stability? Have you ever feel like missing someone you've forget? Have you ever feel cold in the heat? Have you ever feeling alone in the crowd? Have you ever feel lonely when you being with someone? Have you ever enjoy a painful pleasure? Have you ever suffer a joyful pain? Have you ever try to shut down all you senses and live in your own senseless world? Confuse? You should... be...

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Koffee With Karan

It have been quite sometime since i last watched the talk show. Last night, if did something a bit different. If invited a famous businessman, former politician and a journalist.
The guests have very interesting views on things. Vijay Martylal is once a member of parliament, now a successful businessman with a 21 months on airline company. One of his views that i like to highlight here is 'a good politician should be somebody who don't need power and who don't need to create wealth'. People who don't need to use power to create wealth or who don't need to used other people wealth to be in power, will truely fight for the people. The government have the money. For some reason, the management of that money have problems. I personally think that it happen everywhere in the rest of this world.
And the journalist, Shoba De, said that one of the development in the journalist world is the need to make a good sales. People are desperate for sales, until to certain extent, they start to brake the ethics. Overall, it interesting sometime to see a different people on the guest lists, outside the entertainment world.

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One two three four

One is easy. Simple. Single. You can do what you like in any way you want. As long as you didn't brake the law and do something that will bother you night sleep. Independent and free. That when you are single. All you think about is you and you alone.
Two? Even though one seem easy and free, people still bother to move on and settle down at two. Actually, that two can also be one as some people see it as the other half. When two people live as one, they can enjoy all the benefit of two. At the same time, there is a price that they say for the benefit. When there are someone who take a good care of you, you also have someone to take care about. Its a responsibility. On the other hand, some lucky people can have something called loves. When love have everything to offer for the people who have it, its also have so many thing to take. When so many people living their at the happiest moment because of love, the also a lot of people who suffer the worst time of life because of love. Everybody should have the two phase in life be it on love basis or even family arrangement. And when we are in two phase, we should continuously put effort to build, strenghtened and protect the loves.
Three? A challenge. A tough part. But the benefit also priceless. One cannot be as happy as having wife and kids from having money and all other wealth the world can offers.
Four? Five? Six? Similar to three i guess. Managing a family require skills, patience, strenghts and also supports. Some do it very well and some not very well while some people fail.
Whatever the situation, we should do our best for our family.
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Adios.

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Malay post - kenapa aku menulis

Ada org tanya saya, kenapa saya menulis blog? Saya pun tertanya diri saya, kenapa saya menulis blog?
Antara kemungkinan jawapan saya:
1. Sebab ikut orang. Orang ada blog. Saya pun nak ada blog.
2. Sebab nak perhatian. Bagi orang baca buah fikiran saya. Supaya kewujudan saya di alam maya ini disedari.
3. Sebab saya suka menulis.
4. Nak mencurah perasaan.
5. Mengisi masa lapang.
6. Kepuasan diri sendiri.
Tadi baca tulisan sukun pasal kenapa dia menulis. Dia buat blog sebab marah kat orang. Blog dia tempat dia melepas geram dia pada orang. Saya rasa blog dia jujur dan luahan terus dari hati dia.
Bila saya renung balik, tujuan saya menulis blog ini rasanya untuk meningkatkan kemahiran penulisan saya. Selepas beberapa bulan, saya dapat rasakan idea mengalir dengan lebih baik bila saya menulis. Tetapi saya masih tidak mempunyai bidang yang tertentu dalam penulisan saya. Blog post saya juga tidak mempunyai kesinambungan antara satu sama lain.
Untuk jadi penulis yang baik, rasanya saya perlu focus pada bidang2 penulisan yang tertentu. Semoga selepas beberapa tahun menulis blog saya menemui bidang saya betul2 diminati. Dan saya menemui motivasi untuk menulis dan mampu mempunyai pembaca setia.
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Adios.

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Change (Hijrah)

Realizing your obstacles especially thats in your mind.
When you feel down, feeling low, lost your motivation to do things that you usually have passion doing. When your mind perform at the lowest level, when you feel that most of the things go against you. And you seem like lost your life's direction, the goals that you should strive to achieve. Procrastination have become your best friend when its always be your biggest enemy before. Its a sign that you are under stress. You stress with some aspect of your life and its affect all other aspects of your life. The first step is to realize that you have problem. Then you need to identify the root cause of the problem.
Revisit you life's goals. If you feel that you are carried away from the track, have a serious thought about it again. Be crystal clear about it again. Put it back in your mind again and let it reflect in every action that you do in your daily life.
Regain the control of your life.
Take control of your life. Don't let it control you.
Wake up and change.
Be positive, be energetic, be happy, be professional, have positive impact to ourself and others. Get involve with some social activity. I don't know how, but its have positive impact on our emotional stability.
Strive to overcome your weakness.
Identify it and destroy it. Slowly eliminate your bad habit, useless activities and thing that didn't bring value added to your life. Always add your knowledge and skills.
Finally, keep doing positive things.
Smiles
Laugh
Friendly
And the list goes on...
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Adios

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Fair and square...

What is fair? Fair is beautiful, fair is right, fair is justice. What is square? Square is geometrical shape with four corner. Square is also flat. Fair and square? We are even...
Is it positive of negative? I mean is it bring good or bad effect to the feelings? Not very positive i guess. Its not as hash as serve your right, but its still negative.
Then what should we said instead? Mmmm.... I guess we just say it anyway. Life need balance between positive and negative, dark and bright, day and night, hot and cold.
What we need to bear in mind is the balance. Make sure the balance is there. Then everything should be okay.
Anyway, some positive phrase don't need balance i guess. We can say it as much as we want. Phrase like i love you, i miss you, bla bla bla... You know the lists... And we don't even try to balance it with i hate you. That just wrong.
Have a balanced life.

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The longest post... Friends

I came across blog Aku Betul (sorry, i don't know how to put link here since i'm blogging from mobile phone) last night, read about friendship. And that is his longest post. I've been thinking to do something similar. Posting the longest post in this blog.
First thing that came across my mind is how we measure the longest??? Of course we need to compare to something. What is that something? My option are: 1)my past posting. That will be very easy because the longest post i've ever made is only one and half page on microsoft word. 2) industry standard. This option is very difficult because i have no idea about industry standard. Some bloggers are former reporter or editor or any professional writer which they can write with ideas like water flowing in the river. Smooth and endless. 3) since i'm inspired by brother dood from Aku Betul, i can use his post as the benchmark. Beat his post by one word, or write this post at similar lenght with his post. What are other options that i have? I think that enough la. If i want to take the industry standard, it will take days for me to complete this post. So i will take in between my post and mr dood post. Not very easy and not very tough. This introduction is very long already. Hehehe.
Okay let start. Friend. Friendship. How many friend that i have? How many of then can i call best friend? For me, even the definition of best friend change all the time. But what will never change is there are a few friend that i always feel comfortable to be with, comfortable to talk to, never worry to get blame and i always willing to do anything for them. There are some sort of chemistry that we have. However, even that kind of friend come and go in life. Why?
To answer that, i have to analyse my life. I think it is because everybody have their own life. When our lifes path crossed, that where we met. When we met, especially this special friend, we live the moment. Enjoy what life have to offer to us.
And when life change, and we need to go in different direction, i usually let go and not trying to keep up or trying to keep in touch. Will it make me a bad type of friend? Maybe. But i always hope that they will have a good happy lifes. As good as mine or even better.
Can we have a very good friend who we can share everything? And why we need a friend where we can share everything in the first place? I guess its human nature that we need to share especially our fears, worries, pain, and joy of our life. By sharing it with someone, it like having their shoulder to help us going through the pain, or a shoulder to cry on is like some body help us to carry the burden of our life. Having good friends is a bless of life. It make it easier for us to face challenge in life, to face the tough times and make good time feel even better. It make the moment when we achieve something meaningful. There a saying 'to win and to love is the best thing'.
Can a guy and a girl be best friend? Can they become so close without falling in love? Can they share every thing, every good moment, every worries and dear without without being misunderstood by their lover? Its a very difficult question with no right answer that fit every situation. Everybody will have their own view based on their understanding and experience. My view? I think a guy and a girl can be best friend as long as they know the limit. And they know how to take care other people feelings, be it jealousy, perception, or even time spent with the friend and their lover. Another important aspect is we should never compare best friend and our lover. Its a no no. For me, no matter how good the friend to us, whether guy or girl, my family will have the priority for my time, efforts and other resources.
Another emerging friendship type nowadays is cyber friends.
Why people have cyber friends? Having fun, have somebody to talk to especially on the dark chapter of their life without being judge, without being ashame and without worries that the people we met know our secret. And still we can share and release the burden. In cyber world, we also can be as perfect as we want. We can create our personality in there. And there still people who are very comfortable to be just themselves in there.
We get connected through messenger, forums, personal blog, friendship websites and the list goes on... Some cyber relationship transform into real world and some even get married with their cyber friend. I have a number of cyber friends myself. Some of them i've never met while some other became my good friends whether that relationship stay in the cyber world or became friend in the real world. However, we need to keep online to keep in touch of which some people not.
I think this post is very long already. The longest if compared to my other posts. I dont know whether its close to the or dood Aku Betul post or not and i don't want to bother. I'm sure there a lot of spelling error n grammatical error in this post. Forgive me.

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Karan and the Coffee

Watched another episode of Coffee With Karan. This time, the guests are Kareena Kapoor his boyfriend Shaheet Kapoor. The entertaining level is average. Can't spot anything catchy during first half of the show.
Toward the end of the show, a special guest showed up. She is Karisma Kapoor. For the first time, i feel Karisma looked prettier than her sister. I think she have the aura of a mother. She was really amazing in that show. Overall, it is a good show but the one with Shah Rukh Khan, Kajol and Rani is still the best.

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Loneliness

Inspired by toughcookie

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I used to think

That loneliness is what you feel when you are all alone.

Having nobody...

No friend to call...

Nobody i can call my own...

No one to love...

On the second thought...

I think loneliness is when you have somebody to love... But they are not around... Not with you... You can't focus on doing a thing...

And as you counting the time... Second by second, minute by minute... For you to be together again... Your mind are flying far far away looking for your soul and when you meet her, when you with her, the world is yours.

But, as i matured... Learning by life experience, my very own and some other people's experience... I think the worst loneliness is... When you have everybody... A girl to love and she is around... With you... You have your parents, brothers and sisters, friends who always there for you... Who care about you and love you as you are... But.... You can't get connected to then... You just can't feel the bond between your heart and their's. You have this thick wall around you... Protect you from being hurt ever again... In the same time, you can't feel their care and love... You really feel this painful loneliness at the worst... Ironic... When you suffer the pain of loneliness because you are too afraid to get connected and getting hurt again... Anyway... It happen...

I read somewhere... It said... Love is like a life. It may not bring joy and happiness. When we not stop living, why we should stop loving...



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I love you

I got me a new phone few months back. It is Sony Ericsson K800g. Among it's additional features are 3g, 3.2 megapixel camera cybershot, and music player. At first, i got some difficulties to get used with the function as i am a nokia guy. However, after a while, i became familiar with the function and features. I really like the photo mate software, a kind of tutorial for taking pictures using cybershot camera. Now i know how to manipulate lighting to snap a better picture. Its also have guide on how to take panorama picture, close picture and document with extra sharpness. And the 3g, i only need my phone to access internet and e-mails. I can read the news while commuting to and from work. I also have the convenience to blogging from anywhere anytime. How cool is that? It cool and i love it.

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Fwd: Coffee with Karan

Last night, I watched the talk show 'Coffee with Karan' season two. The guess are Hrithik Roshan and Priyanka Chopra. Its not as good as last week series with Shah Rukh Khan, Kajol and Rani, because the guess seem like trying to be right. The answers especially from Hrithik Roshan sound too ideal to be true. For me, I feel that he is not being completely honest. As as example, when asked about his feeling toward the reporters action reporting that his career is finish, he answered that he think these reporters are angle because they make him work harder. Maybe he mean it but I just feel it not really convincing.  However, i really like it when he said  'I beleive in living the moment... I choose her...'. It may sound simple, but for me it like one of the key to be happy. Living the moment. We enjoy what we have now. We stop worrying so much about the past or the future. Like the saying 'worry is like the rocking chair, it give you something to do, but never bring you anywhere'.

 

Let stop worrying, do our best efforts, say some little prayer and enjoy the moment.

 

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Love post series 1: The power of thoughts.

Love begin in our mind. Think about love and thinking about loving someone we like and admire. Some people have been in love for someone for years without realizing it. When we are sure and knew that we love someone, it will guide our move, our action and our consideration in relationship. In the mean time, we also have to think about our partner's needs and desires. Actually the thought of love bring a lot of amazing feelings. Thats are the time when we live in a fairy tale. Our mind will be filled with amazing fantasy, and we will be in the happiest time in our life. How powerful is that?

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Shah Rukh Khan, Kajol and Rani

I just watched the repeated show 'Coffee with Karan" season two with Shah Rukh Khan, Rani Mukherjee and Kajol Mukherjee as the guess. This is the first time I watched them being interviewed in a live program and I have to say that they are brilliant and have a beautiful heart. Shah Rukh Khan seem to be very smart answering all the question, Kajol being naughty with cute childish character and Rani in a quiet innocent style. They look so sincere. And their relationship seem very close, warm and lovely.

And most important of all, they having fun and been entertaining. Its a fun watch.

Technology innovation

Last time i read about a guy who found way to make salt water burn. However that innovation require years or even decades of research to turn the finding into economical projects. Another setback is the process didn't produce net energy. Its consume more energy than what it create. Last night, i read about a new innovation where a guy invented machine that can extract petroleum from waste. He spend one million dollar in ten years research to come out with machine that can produce 18 times net energy. And i think they already sold the very first machine for about 5.1 million dollars. Sure that guy will make a fortune. Now i wonder who will make more fortune, the guy who invented the machine or the company who commercialized it?


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In Search of an Identity

In the primary school, when a teacher asked, “who would you like to be?” I answered “I want to be a clerk”. She laughed at me and tell the whole class that I want to be a clerk. When I’m in the secondary school, while doing my writing task about my ambition, I wrote that I want to be a doctor. When I finished school, some of my friend decided to take an accounting degree, I didn’t have the gut to join them because I heard that is a very tough course. Then I decided to apply for Business degree instead.
Being in the business line, I always want to be a businessman. However, trapped in the ‘rat race’ as term by Robert Kiyosaki where I have to work Monday to Friday, earning the paychecks every month just to settle the never ending bills, I’ve stuck. And having a lot of loans to payback, I’m just few months away from bankrupt. And I’ve stopped dreaming about being a businessman.
Having said that, what I want to be now? I think I just want to be a simple guy doing some little thing to make the world a better place. I just want to take care about people around me, try to avoid from having conflict with everybody and love my family and friends as they are. In the mean time, I still continue enrich my knowledge and skills through observations, reading, hand-on experience as well as analyzing things that happen around me and learn from it. Today have to be better than yesterday. We learned new things, even as little as one new word. The key point is it has to be better than yesterday.
What I like? I like watching movies, listening to music and surfing the internet. That are among the thing that I will do during my free time. What kind of movie? I like romances. Even though I enjoy actions pack movies, thriller, comedy and some few other types, what I enjoy the most is the movie about loves.

My mind tells me that I need to sleep. Just publish this post anyway… hehehe.

Malay Post "Burung apa?? Rasa apa ??"

Suatu hari aku terasa satu rasa dalam hati ini, rasa yang indah. Yang tidak nyata dalam hidupku sebelum ini. Dan rasa itu menjadi lebih indah, lebih bermakna bila ia juga hadir dalam hati milik mu. Dan aku terus hidup dengan penuh makna demi rasa ini. Rasa ini milik kita sayang. Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia' kata bapa burung itu... Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...kata bapa burung itu lagi. Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia' kata bapa burung itu... Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...kata bapa burung itu lagi.Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia' kata bapa burung itu... Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...kata bapa burung itu lagi.Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia' kata bapa burung itu... Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...kata bapa burung itu lagi. Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia...Rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia... Sayang ni dengar ke buat2 tak dengar? Anak burung itu marah bila kena turn dia plak. Tadi burung. Org ini plak cakap' rasa apa? Rasa sayangkan dia... Rasa apa? Rasa rindu dia... Rasa apa? Rasa bahagia dengan dia... Rasa apa? Rasa nak kiss dia hari2. Rasa apa? Rasa nak dia ada kat pd... Rasa apa? Rasa nak peluk dia erat2... Rasa apa? Eh berapa banyak da ramli, ramli cakap biar banyak x pe. Sayang dia hari tu. Sayang dia hari ni. Sayang dia esok. Muahs

TV Series - House

House season three

AXN drama House third season already started. This new season is slightly different from 2 previous seasons where its focus more on House charactor, his addiction to vicodin and his annoying way of solving the medical cases. What i like about house character is his expertise in his job and his principle. He do the right thing in sarcastic way and he doesn't care what other people think about him. Only the people that really know him knows and appreciate him and accept him. However his manipulative skills in getting what he want also very interesting.

Whatever it is, it did make me stick my ass on the couch in front of the TV every Monday night.

Stronger than rational

In a rational state on mind, nobody would want to hurt anybody, nobody would want to break the law, nobody would like to be alone, nobody would like to backstabbing other people, nobody would want to destroy the mother earth, but so many people do commit such things. What is the force behind it that stronger than rational thinking of human mind that make anybody do thing they didn't want to do and is it worth in the long run?

Stressful life? Living in there days, there are so much to give with so little that we have. The big gap between what we are able to give and what are expected from us, whether its coming from ourself or people around us or even the world itself, create a huge stress to us. Its common nowadays until stress have become a main cause of many critical illnesses, that cause a lot of money for treatment or even death. Sometimes, because of stress, we unintentionally or intentionally hurt the people we love the most and we become even more stressfull regretting it. When we hurt people that we love, we indirectly hurt ourself. But its happened and if we keep on doing it, we might end up losing them physically or emotionally.
For fun? Some people found its extremely difficult to entertain themself, to satisfy their emotional needs until they have to do something extremely dangerous and harmful to themself or even to other people. Its involved crime, robbery, stealing, bullying, or even becoming a serial killer. Its happened and i don't really know the real season why it happen anyway.

There a lot of other things that people do beyond their rational because of a lot of other reasons and its happened. Theres also probability of being rational is not always the right thing to do and not a good thing to do. Everybody have their own values and they are guided by that value system in justifying their action.

What do you think?

Bank at my hometown

I went to a bank today doing some banking transaction. Looking at their efficiency, remind me to the bank in my hometown back to my school days. What was there during that time that already improved nowaday is the queue system. In the old time, we have to queue in front of the counter. Sometimes the queue is so long until it went to the outside of the premise. Thank to the system improvement where now we only comfortably sit down and wait for our number to be called the the specific counter. The management nowadays also give big attention to customer services. Customer's waiting time, courtesy services and efficient transaction, thanks to stiff competition in the banking industry. And another growing important development, on-line banking. How good to be able to do most of the banking transaction on the net. Banks which have realible on-line banking will have strong competitive advantage.